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Do you have wishes?

Because I have dreams

They are not of the lofty sort

Basic needs for my soul…

Do you have dreams?

Because I have wishes

Not of the greedy type

Simply to be a better man for you

Do you have needs?

Because I have wants

Not of the lusty sort

Just the chance to hold you tight

Do you have wants?

Yes I have needs

Not to worry though

They are on hold, waiting for us…

Do you hurt?

Yes I have pain 

Not of a physical way, just heartache 

That I cannot quench in a day…

Do you have pain?

Yes I hurt…

Not to mention that 

I so miss you in every way… 

Comforted only by your scent, your touch and the sound of your heartbeat. 

Do you… love as I do? 
Buffalos Joey I 

December 13, 2016

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Lost her breath

Heart skipped a beat

Every chance I get

With my eyes, I sweep her off her feet

In my arms

I steal a glance

Her smile starts on the inside

She steps back out of her stance.

I see the happiness come forth

It’s love that I evoke

From the depths within

I have given hope to her heart that I awoke.

Hand in hand

Everywhere we go

Day after day

Like a seedling it shall grow

Evoking truth

Awakening desire

Gingerly stepping 

Forth from the ring of fire

My heart is strong

My mind is clear

With you by my side

There is nothing to fear…
BuffalosJoeyi

8-26-2016

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Sometimes we lose sight,

Unintentionally, remorseful 

When reminded, do what’s right.

Occasionally we are to blame

Intentional communications 

Always fan the flame.

Never give up on ones you trust

Unintentional consequences 

Admit wrongdoings when you must.

Say I love you

Intentionally from the heart

Honesty is truly a fine start…
Buffalosjoeyi

6-19-2016

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It’s where your heart is
A memory of a kiss
A favorite fishing spot
Someone you miss

Not just where to hang your hat
But where to hold one dear
It’s the love of the air
That makes everything so clear

Home is where your heart is
Never forget the love you share
It’s ok to feel home sick
Or even go back if you dare…

The mountains will welcome you
The folks will always wave
Home and the little things
Are what we all crave…

Buffalosjoeyi

5-12-2016

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I will not tell you
For you already know
How dear to me you are.

I could never ask you
For I probably have
Do you ever wish upon a star?

We will one day see
For we surely understand
That our love will last

We can withstand the pain
For strong we’ve been
Knowing our visits go fast

I love you more beautiful
I tell you always
It’s the truth I serve

I will live my life
For its destiny you see
To give what you deserve…

Buffalosjoeyi
2-25-2016


The sound of your voice makes me smile

Slowly in I breathe deep

I would walk, run and drive every mile

To sit quietly and watch you sleep…

The touch of your hand keeps me sane

I am intoxicated by your scent

I would do anything to steal your pain

Where you’ve walked, I’ve dreamt

When I close my eyes

I feel your love,

I hear the silence,

I need you…

Joseph A. Imperi
11-16-2015
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She has the will of a warrior

Yet the patience of a saint

The beauty of a goddess

That all the greats would paint…

Fighting for her life

Without glamour or fame

This is a true test of faith

Not an ounce of blame…

Proud, beautiful yet always tired

Never one to complain

Stubborn, strong yet albeit mired

In the grips of internal pain…

Carries inside a heart of gold

Yet warn down from the fight

She has a warm heart yet still bold

Always doing what seems right…

Cancer is an ugly disease

It will make you want to drop

All I can do is love and say please

Don’t give up or ever stop.

You are loved by many

Known closely by few

Admired so very deeply

Always remember, I love you!

Joseph Imperi

10-19-2015

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Darkness envelopes my mind

Agonizing decisions

Fatigued from the grind.

Seemingly always in our own way

Endless visions 

I close my eyes, and I pray.

Second guessing is so not me

Unwanted decisions

I open my eyes, and I see.

My love for you warms my heart

Future visions

Unwavering devotion from the start…

Simply put, I am in love.

Buffalos Joey I

10-9-2015


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Over the last few weeks much has been happening in my life. Many of you know the struggle that life has been for myself. The struggle is real (Q). This has been the toughest period of my entire existence. I have said it before yet it bears mentioning again, I am not wired to be a part-time Dad. When my situation changed in April of 2011, I was lost. Asking for a divorce brought a world of hurt in many ways. Losing my children was not where I envisioned my life going but it happened. Being a weekend Dad is painful and arduous.

I would go twelve days before a quick, short and joyous forty-eight hour visit. When the boys left once again, the silence crept in and with it the pain. These times were the most excruciating moments I have had to relive over and over. This is the sort of anguish that reminds me of the movie “ground-hog day”. Some say pain of loss eases over time, yet this is much different. My house becomes a home for those short periods and then numbness takes hold. It was only the knowing that its twelve, then eleven and then… yeah the countdown, it kept me going somewhat. Most days we would go without contact and this seems corny, but I cherished the phone time regardless of the shortness of the calls. The sound of their voices is the nourishment I need to get through the twelve days of hell.

As I stated before there have been many changes. I received four summons for court late last year . Two Courts, one for support and the other for custody and visitation. This is nothing new, and I cannot afford a Lawyer so I decided with my closest friend that I would represent myself (Pro se) and pray for a good outcome. It is a new County as they live two and a half hours away now. Maybe I will catch a break. I am still in the process of all of it and all seems to be going fair for which I am eternally grateful so far.

THEN… It happened.

I received a letter from My ex’s attorney outlining a situation I thought could only be a dream. We are still negotiating and working out the details but the big news is… I am for now, A full-time Dad. These are words I thought were only parts of dreams. My eldest son is now living with me (three days and counting). He starts school tomorrow here where I live and I cannot help but feel elated and conflicted. I have two sons and the thought of splitting them up is agonizing. I do realize this move is best for my eldest and I promise the world I will do everything I can to make it work. There is still a part of me missing though. I’m still missing my youngest boy from my every day life. His sadness as we left, heartbreaking and agonizing. He cracks me up with how tough he is. My youngest will be OK, this I know. I love them both so much…

As I write this, I am reminded of how many Moms and Dads have to do this week in and week out, others with much less visitation and for some the visits never happen. Through the blog, my page (selfish promotion coming), and most importantly my support group (OK wait for it…) I found a world where I was not alone. I am forever indebted to so many for their support, kind words of encouragement and their sharing. The sharing made me realize that not only am I not alone but my story and situation could have been much worse. I have felt every emotion and relived so much pain over the last three plus years that most would give up. When this started I had to find new ways of rebuilding our life and have our little things all over again.
We needed our routine back. There are two that I will share, the first is silly but we keep it going even today:
Kiss, hug, wiggle nose, high-five, hand shake, thumb war and RPS followed by tickling that always make them smile.
The second and more importantly is we boys have a saying. “We are Imperis and we never give up”. This little saying is so powerful. It’s a little thing we share and it means so much to me, and I know it means the world to them! We have survived it all and have grown so close. They are my everything and I cannot ever thank my boys enough for believing in their Dad.

The worst is now in the past and I am a better man because of all of this. I never thought I could actually say that. The insanity of it all though is the bittersweet feeling of only being half way there. Divorce is tough on everyone, but especially the children. If your situation is not producing a harmonic household, don’t stay for the kids. Do what is right, save your sanity and possibly that of your kids as well. We have survived and I know you can as well…

I am forever grateful that I found this outlet.

Your support means so much to me.

Please like, share, comment and spread the word.

Kids deserve both parents!

You can find me all over the place:

@FB- Joe Imperi
Dads Rights Coalition of NY (group admin)
Dads Rights Coalition of New York (page admin)

Google+ @ Joseph Imperi

Joseph.Imperi@gmail.com

buffalosjoeyi@yahoo.com


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A poem for a dear friend…

Your smile was infectious
your laugh unmistakable
always willing to help
and your devotion unbreakable

You grew up quickly beyond your years
Shy and unassuming when you were young
Never afraid to talk about your fears
everyone so proud of who you had become

Years have passed
but a part of me, you remained
always have I loved you
In my memory you are engrained

It was not meant to be
We’ve all had our moments to cry
please watch over us now
as you hover in the sky

You were a loving mother, wife, sister and friend
You left nothing on this earth untouched in the end…

Rest in Peace Renee,
Always and forever remembered…

Buffalosjoeyi
4/10/2014

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